1. |
A Reason
02:37
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Verse
Cancer tried to kill me
five times so far
and now it's coming back
To try once more
84 days just got erased
I fell short and took another drink
6 attempts at suicide
I'm still here, and I don't know why
I'm just lost and I can't find my way
Chorus
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
and I keep getting back up for more
I'm still here for some kind of reason
Just don't know what the reasons for
Verse
82 airborne but I couldn't deploy
All I wanted was to be with the boys
Lost partners when I was a deputy
PTSD got the best of me
thought helicopters would be my thing
But chemo went and took away my wings
Lord everything that I've tried
Was taken away by Grand design
Chorus
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
and I keep getting back up for more
I'm still here for some kind of reason
Just don't know what the reasons for
Verse
I have a wife that finds sunshine in the rain
2 daughters who take the pain away
and a son who's stronger than me any day
Hell, the answers are right in front of me
Chorus
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
and I keep getting back up for more
I'm still here for some kind of reason
Just don't know what the reasons for
I know what the reasons for
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2. |
Be Not Afraid
02:49
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Verse
Where the Tigris and
Euphrates meet
Goat paths pass as city streets
Death finds both
the strong and meek
And measures out our lives
One day in the gunner’s ring
A nearby cellphone got a ping
The angels all began to sing
As we got blown up in the sky
Chorus
Then a still small voice said you can always come back
No matter how far you think you’ve strayed
When your world’s turned over and your sky’s turned black
I’ll ease your burdens, do not be afraid
Verse
After I had left the Cav
You came along, made me a dad
Job markets looking pretty bad
So I stayed home and hung around
Years they passed and things weren’t right
I’d black out screaming in the night
You watched me try to take my life
As cops threw me to the ground
Chorus
Then a still small voice said you can always come back
No matter how far you think you’ve strayed
When your world’s turned over and your sky’s turned black
I’ll ease your burdens, do not be afraid
Verse
I was so sick so many years
A lethal mix of hate and fear
No reason I should still be here
Or even be alive
But now I know a God above
And that living is the same as love
Want to be a dad that you’re proud of
For a long, long, long time
Chorus
Then a still small voice said you can always come back
No matter how far you think you’ve strayed
When your world’s turned over and your sky’s turned black
I’ll easy your burdens, do not be afraid
Do not be afraid
Be not afraid
I am not afraid
Be not afraid
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3. |
Good Ain't Good Enough
03:41
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Verse
Growing up I could see them all staring right at me,
Deep inside I told myself just how perfect I should be.
It wasn't hard to figure out I never quite fit in,
Lonely boy with big shoes to fill and not a clue where to begin.
No matter how hard that I tried,
I couldn't do enough good to fill that hole inside.
Chorus
Cuz sometimes good ain't good enough,
You try to save the whole wide world and wind up hurting folks you love,
Man this life can sure get rough,
When it feels like good ain't good enough.
Cuz sometimes good ain't good enough,
You try to save the whole wide world and wind up hurting folks you love,
Man this life can sure get rough,
When it feels like good ain't good enough.
Verse
As far back as I recall it was a dream of mine,
To put on my uniform and walk that Thin Blue Line,
I was proud to do my job, to serve and protect,
I tried to keep it between the lines but in a flash my life was wrecked,
No matter how hard that I tried,
I couldn't drink enough to fill that hole inside.
Verse
As far back as I recall it was a dream of mine,
To put on my uniform and walk that Thin Blue Line,
I was proud to do my job, to serve and protect,
I tried to keep it between the lines but in a flash my life was wrecked,
No matter how hard that I tried,
I couldn't drink enough to fill that hole inside.
Chorus
Cuz sometimes good ain't good enough,
You try to save the whole wide world and wind up hurting folks you love,
Man this life can sure get rough,
When it feels like good ain't good enough.
Bridge
I can promise this much to my son,
He'll never have to wonder if he'll measure up.
Chorus
It might feel like good ain't good enough,
You'll try to save the whole wide world and wind up hurting folks you love,
And even when this life gets rough
Never feel like good ain't good enough
Never feel like good ain't good enough
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4. |
Good On My Own
03:53
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Verse
Here I am getting help again, for what used to be my only friend
But you just left scars and whiskey dents and brought me to my knees
You morphed my mind and changed my soul, my hands shook cause I’d need you so
I’ve lost love and pretty homes with your control of me
But now I see the cold hard truth
Of who you are and what you do
Chorus
Like a mistress, you undress all my weakness and use me up
You get a metal, ya black label Devil, for making this rebel a sorry “you know what”
Thought I needed you to live but I don’t
Turns out I live pretty damn good on my own
Verse
Without you in my morning cup, my eyes are clear when I wake up
I can finally feel and that’s enough to keep me wanting more
My kids believe the words I say, my love will stay another day
Cause I’m sober as a jay, it ain’t you I’m fighting for
I’ve chased your high and felt your low
But I’m cutting you off and letting you go
Chorus
Like a mistress, you undress all my weakness and use me up
You get a metal, ya black label Devil, for making this rebel a “sorry you know what”
Thought I needed you to live
but I don’t
Turns out I live pretty damn good on my own
Bridge
Without a pill that numbs my thinking, without the handles I’d be drinking
It’s a new page that I’m turnin’ and I like this better version
Chorus
Without my mistress and God as my witness, I’m through with all this - I’ve had enough
I’ll take a metal, you black label Devil, cause I’ve passed the levels and sobered up
Thought I needed you to live but I don’t
Turns out I live pretty damn good,
You thought you’d win me back but you won’t
Turns out I live pretty damn good on my own
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5. |
I've Had Good Days
03:35
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VERSE
It was the alcohol talking
Can't blame nobody else
Just a secret I was keeping
And put way up on the shelf
One sip, one shot...is all that it took Boy I could write a book..
CHORUS
But I've had good days
They haven't all been that bad
When you hear my story
You'd think that's all I've had
I've been up and down
and in and out
With things I still don't understand
But Hope remains...
Cuz I've had good days
VERSE
You can't drink away your feelings
That's something I've come to know Or justify your actions
By putting on a good show
I bought..I own it..I still regret it
But I don't ever wanna forget
CHORUS
But I've had good days
They haven't all been that bad
When you hear my story
You'd think that's all I've had
I've been up and down
and in and out
With things I still don't understand
But Hope remains...
Cuz I've had good days
SOLO
Repeat: One sip, one shot is all that it took
Man I could write a book
CHORUS:
But I've had good days
They haven't all been that bad
When you hear my story
You'd think that's all I've had
I've been up and down
and in and out
With things I still don't understand
But Hope remains...
Cuz I've had good days
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6. |
On Our Journey
03:20
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7. |
Welcome Home
03:41
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Verse:
Two tours of living hell In the jungles of Vietnam
Seeing things that scar your soul But burying it like a man
I never thought I’d ever see… those awful things again
But sometimes when
an old man drinks
Things come sneakin in
Well welcome home
I’d like to blame it on the alcohol .. But that would be a lie
Locked up in that bottle. It’s never ruined a single life
There’s a place I finally found ….That helped me clear my head
And I knew I was finally there … cause the first thing that they said….
Was welcome home
Chorus
Welcome home … you don’t have to face this battle on your own
And we know …. That it’s gonna be a rough and rocky road
But step by step we’ll be with you … till every deamons gone
You’re not alone …. Welcome home
Verse:
I’m thankful for a warriors heart … always true and always strong
Wading right into the storm … always there to right a wrong
I’m thankful for the warriors there … who finally made me see
Ive still got a warriors heart… and I’m back to bein me
Well welcome home
Chorus
Welcome home … you don’t have to face this battle on your own
And we know …. That it’s gonna be a rough and rocky road
But step by step we’ll be with you … till every deamons gone
You’re not alone …. Welcome home
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